In Loving Memory

Today is a tough day.A year ago today I gave birth to my son, Christian Mattias. For those of you who don’t know, Christian was stillborn. I have been dreading this day, because I was so clueless on what we should do. In preparation for this day I have been constantly reading message boards, blogs and articles on what it is I should do to celebrate his memory. Eric and I both decided that I am going to bake an angel food cake. I have to say at first I felt weird about making a cake, because I thought of it as a birthday cake and there is obviously no birthday. Instead we are just going to call it Christian’s cake, and an angel food cake seemed fitting. We are also doing a balloon release. We also lit a candle this morning and we are having it burn all day. We didn’t decide on the candle idea until yesterday, so I don’t have any special candle. Just a pumpkin pie scented candle. Every year from now we will have a special memorial candle made in his name.

These three things are going to be a new tradition that Eric and are going to do on Christian’s day, every year.

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17 comments on “In Loving Memory”

  1. Oh my gosh I am so sorry to hear of your loss 🙁 You are in my prayers for God to ease your pain and comfort you. I will be making an angel food cake in memory of Christian too.

  2. I know there are no words to help you, but I am so sorry!

    I really love the candle idea!!

  3. I’m very sorry to hear that… that’s so sweet of you to honor his memory with the angel food cake and balloon release.

  4. I am so sorry, I did not know. I think a tribute as you have prepared is fitting and I will say a special prayer for Christian.

  5. I’m so sorry to hear of your loss. Please know that I will be saying a prayer for you as well today.

    On Facebook I just found out of a baby who was stillborn today to a mother who lost her husband (the father) just a few weeks ago. He was a police officer and killed in an altercation. I cannot imagine the pain she is feeling as well today.

    But to think of it this way, your son has a new little friend playing with him in Heaven today.

  6. Thinking of you today~!
    I have had 4 miscarriages so know at least a little of your pain.
    Be kind to yourselves today.

    Much love

    Kimmie
    x

  7. So sorry for your loss. I think your new traditions are wonderful ways to remember your son.

    Thinking of you…

  8. I am so sorry for the loss of Christian. I will be praying for you and your family

  9. I cant imagine the pain you must feel. You are a strong woman, a true inspiration. I’ll be praying for you and your family.

  10. Thinking of you, as well.
    Big, huge hugs.

  11. First off I want to say my heart goes out to you from one Mommy of an Angel to another. I lost my daughter Cooper at 6 1/2 months for unexplained reasons (aka SIDS). I will not say I know how you feel or understand what you are going through as everyone’s pain is different and that is one thing that upset me after Cooper’s passing. I know people say what they need to try and make you feel better but sometimes that has a reverse effect.I guess what I’m trying to say is You are an inspiration to others and Our Angles should be celebrated. Big Hugs and Much love to you and yours 🙂

  12. My prayers go out to you.

  13. I’m so sorry for your loss. The two of you have chosen beautiful tributes to your son. My thoughts are with you.

  14. I am so sorry to read of your loss last year. You are such a strong woman – I can only imagine the pain you must feel, but it sounds as if your memorial was absolutely perfect.

  15. So sorry for your loss 🙁

  16. I am so glad to hear that you celebrated the day. Six years ago (March 26, 2003) I lost a baby boy at just 12 days old. We have a “birthday party” every year for him.

  17. I’m so sorry for your loss. Everything you’re doing sounds like a very sweet way to remember him.

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